i left my cow in the trashcan

There are no running aways.
You can only run forward; run ahead; run towards the future.
This is beginning to set in.

Yesterday I lost something which meant alot to me.
Something small but it really meant alot.
I'm so sorry.

Yesterday I had a big quarrel with dad.
It all begin from something small.
But the quarrel became so big it involved 19 yrs of my life.
How I gave disappointments upon disappointments.
My heart broke.

For once I felt that the Lord abandoned me.
I am scared.
Where can I hide?

posted by gracie @ 11:00 AM

I'm back from Malaysia! 1 week seemed so quick!! Now I'm back and faced with my life again.

The Malayisa trip brought everything off my mind. Including all the unhappy things going on in my life. Well, I seemed to have travelled to another world! This trip made me closer with my juniors and made me realised that I really enjoy their company :) Think I'm missing them already!

No major screw-ups during the trip. I wasnt a very fierce leader, neither was Chinyong. Haha think red group has the best group leaders. Blue group had one person complaining that Kelvin Ho was too fierce. Eh, but he's such a cute tuan zhang! He has a fan club in S'pore and he attained another one in Penang! See how popular he is. And during concert rehearsal when he played his solo item, cameras were snapping away at the audience seat. I asked this sec3/4 girl and she told me that his photo can sell for 2 bucks to Kelvin's fanclub. WOAH. Too bad I dun have a camera with me!!

There's this sec 3 dizi guy from China called Li Li whom Shan and Yunxin became crazy about. He's only a yr younger and he doesnt have a China man look, neither does he have a Chinese accent. Hmm my conclusion is that he's kinda cute. Haha.. didnt notice him before until the Malaysia trip.

Really had fun with the chouwei- Shan, Yingchun, Yunxin, Chinyong, Junda, Sharon, Kelvin, Chrystal, Minghao, Yelin, Justine.. esp. Chinyong and Junda!! All the lame and silly things they did... really made my day when I'm feeling down. On the whole, the trip was okay.. despite the lousy Hotel First World @ Genting and the super lousy performance hall in Petaling Jaya and some AP juniors. Haha.. think I'll go back dunman more often to see my juniors :)

posted by gracie @ 12:03 AM

Today was a fun day out with yvonne and yimyiu :)

Was in dhs doing ticketing stuff and stayed in the CO room as usual. Somehow I really felt that I like the juniors, after the concert and after getting to know them better. And I'm not exactly refering to xyz juniors. Can see that some of them appreciated the seniors but strongly I feel that only the sec4 committee and some xyz sec4s 'welcome' us back. Hmm, not that I'm sensitive la huh.

Later went to Bugis and pigged ourselves out. Yvonne had 1 omelette corochan, one box of bacon and cheese takopachi, 1 bottle of muji milk tea, 1 packet of muji fish crackers and 2 salmon sushi. YY and me shared one box of octopus takopachi, 2 salmon sushi each and some of Yvonne's milk tea and fish crackers. That's not all... all 3 of us even shared one bowl of beef noodles. 3 piggies pigging ourselves out at bugis. Hahaha.

Then we shopped around and took gorgeous neoprints! What a great day out together, laughing and talking so much crap.

I forgot about being unhappy.

posted by gracie @ 1:32 AM

Still disappointed for screwing up my A's. Really don't wanna think about it but guess that's what everybody's talking about these days. Can't hide ya. Wasn't what I expected. Well, at least I'm feeling better now to blog here. To concerned friends out there: Don't worry I'm moving on.

Will GP A1 and 3 other lousy grades get me to NUS or NTU arts and social science?

Pray for me ya.

posted by gracie @ 1:48 AM

Happy 21st Birthday Weixiong! :D

This morning wanted to go watch Howl's Moving Castle with Meg and Xue but I couldnt wake up. Heh.. and Xue has to go to her grandma's house, so in the end me, Ken and Meg had lunch at cafe cartel@ Siglap. Talked mostly about the results day, and made ourselves more nervous. Arghh. Anyway, Ken told me about his Vancouver trip and how he got mistaken to be a Korean and also a Taiwanese. Haha. But he does look like a Korean. Kenneth Bae Yong Jun? Hahahah. Hmm, seems like I'm still in the mood for a little laugh.

Tix sales for dhsco concert doing well.. though the schools are driving us mad with their changing orders. All will be over this Sat! Hmm, or maybe all will be over for me this Fri. Sigh.

Later will be going Weixiong's birthday celebration @ Aranda. Haven gotten him a present yet! Will be damn broke after that too. Anyway, boss aka Roph messaged me to collect pay on the 7th :) Later before the celebration will be heading down to town to get Weixiong's present with Shan, Yuwei and Colin. Hope we can find what we wanna get.

Cheers. And good luck to all and me this Fri.

posted by gracie @ 3:58 PM