i left my cow in the trashcan: December 2004

Got so pissed by my mum. I stepped on her tail and she stepped on mine. Then she started rambling on how I've been (still) using her money and that people kept on asking her about me. WTF. Ask those people to get lost lah. What has my life got to do with them anyway. I rot, I'm not working, I spend my own holidays according to my own wishes. So what's their bloody problem? Urghhhhhhhh. Not like as if I'm NOT looking for a job. NOT like as if I only return home in the wee hours. NOT like I'm stepping over the line and going overbroad. Does everybody HAVE to conform? Urghhhhhhh.

Belated Merry X'mas everyone. Sorry was so busy with the concert, almost blanked out immediately after it. Or I should say 2 concerts. This Christmas was very different or I should say memorable. Kinda relieved it's finally over and it's time to start looking for a job!!

Went to Recruit Express with mei, ky and yy today. Was a breeze, just filled up a form and then the lady at the agency asked us some questions and -poof- we were outta there. Waiting to be informed of any jobs by this week. Hopefully we all get to work together, will be so much fun!

Haven been updating my wardrobe. Sucks. Need cash!!!

Oh yah and today on the streets of orchard, we saw DAVID YEO! *gosh* He's kinda good-looking but we didnt dare to go up to him or yell his name. Haha.. so much for spotting a S'pore Idol finalist.

Yea I'm finally meeting my classmates tmr haha! Shall be naughty and pon sectional tmr. Anyway i've attended so many practices, I m getting tired. Shall strive to attain perfect pitch for everything i play by the next practice haha. My fingers hurt while i'm typing this, well it shows how much i've been practising and playing these days.

Yea glad you ppl liked my layout. I like it too, gives me the peaceful feeling. Will be so busy till X'mas then perhaps after that when everything's ended i'll feel stranded again. With nothing to do. Urghh. I need a job!

Though I dread practices, I love playing in the orchestra. The feeling it gives is so good, when all the 5 senses are engaged in the song. It feels so good to go on stage, to move with the others and to play good music to the audience. It feels so good to hear the audience clap and to see the concert hall packed. It's kinda weird, on one hand I always complain about practices, on the other hand I willingly commit myself to them.

This kind of a feeling I tried to explain to him. But I think he didnt get it. Only a person in my shoes or was once in my shoes can understand. I am wasting time thinking he will understand and share my feelings. Well, forget it then.

out of boredom i changed my layout haha. having a headache now after facing the com for 4 hrs. gotta ZzzZzzzzZz..

BORED. Haven been doing anything that's constructive. Man, i think i m rotting at a rapid rate. Cant seem to remember the dates and the days, i kept thinking it's Sunday. Sunday-syndrome? Come to think of it, i haven seen my class since prom. And i haven been able to meet with them and it will be so again this wed. Heard they will be going gym then kbox. well, looks like i wont be part of the outing again.

Need to register for driving. Jeremy says he registered and his is already scheduled on 14 Jan. So late.. maybe i can register in time to have it on my birthday. What a great way to spend the day.

My sis had no one but me to celebrate her birthday on the 12th. Gave her her present by placing it on her study table while she's still sleeping before i went out. Think she got a surprise :) I felt like a good sister for once. well, she's finally 16, my little sis is all grown up :)

sigh. my parents will be away to china for one week leaving me and my sis at home. i wonder if its actually meaning FREEDOM! or MORE RESPONSIBLITY!.. anyway i have so many CO practices i will bascially be at home or in dhs. so my life is pretty boring for now.

anyway looking forward to chalet next weekend with church people. hmmm, i had a fun outing to ecp with them yesterday. was cycling for almost 2 hours!! and it was pretty fun riding the couple bicycle. haha, not with my prince charming though but with wanny... actually the weather was pretty good i think despite the rain.. it made it more enjoyable escaping from rain and looking at horizons with dark clouds forming and riding into the 'perfect storm'! hahah.. but it's more fun sailing in that weather.. had a memorable experience once when i was younger.. sailing at 14 knots! the wind was fantastic and the speed at which i was going was just whoa.

haha thinking of those childhood times again... other times i like to be in my own world, creating my 'perfect' characters and living my 'perfect' life. how great would that be. well, in my dreams! haha.. yea and i want so much to get my hands on Sims2!!