i left my cow in the trashcan

2006-07-06T02:36:00.000+08:00

At the budget terminal before we depart for Hanoi

2006-07-06T02:35:00.000+08:00

Me and Jenny @ Mimosa Guesthouse in Sapa town

2006-07-06T02:34:00.000+08:00

Before our climb...still looking happy

2006-07-06T02:33:00.000+08:00

The porter boy!

2006-07-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

me and Jenny acting like bimbos

2006-07-06T02:29:00.000+08:00

The team of us who conquered Fansipan

2006-07-06T02:28:00.000+08:00

Inside our tent which got seriously flooded

2006-07-06T02:25:00.000+08:00

Me in black doing the climb; I thought this part was freaky

2006-07-06T02:24:00.001+08:00

Our dinner kakis @ basecamp

2006-07-06T02:24:00.000+08:00

Jiawei and Steven and the Viet flag

2006-07-06T02:23:00.000+08:00

In victory! At the summit of Mt. Fansipan!

2006-07-06T02:21:00.000+08:00

The countryside boy :))

2006-07-06T02:19:00.000+08:00

Me and the Jiawei who look an overdose of Bia Hoi (local beer)

2006-07-06T02:18:00.000+08:00

Buy from me! Buy from me!

2006-07-06T02:17:00.000+08:00

Some randomness in nature

2006-07-06T02:14:00.000+08:00

In Sapa among the rice fields

2006-07-06T02:12:00.000+08:00

the gooey dessert we had but it's delicious!

2006-07-06T02:10:00.000+08:00

my fave breakfast!!! chee cheong fan plus good meat viet style

2006-07-06T02:07:00.000+08:00

All shades but no sun ( we are cool kay)

2006-07-06T02:06:00.000+08:00

us and uncountable viet hats in various sizes

2006-07-06T02:04:00.000+08:00

The guys acting funny @ one of the islands we stopped for a swim

2006-07-06T02:01:00.000+08:00

Sunset @ Halong Bay: Beautiful!

2006-07-06T01:59:00.000+08:00

Halong Bay, on Catba Island where we spent a comfy night at the Princes Hotel

2006-07-06T01:57:00.000+08:00

Jacobee looking sian while we explore the cave

2006-07-06T01:56:00.000+08:00

us and our kayaks!

2006-07-06T01:55:00.000+08:00

me and nicky outside the cave

2006-07-06T01:54:00.000+08:00

Inside our junk, this is where we have meals

2006-07-06T01:51:00.000+08:00

Along the river to Perfume Pagoda; me sinking the sampan LOL

2006-07-06T01:47:00.000+08:00

Nic and meeeeee

2006-07-06T01:46:00.000+08:00

Perfume Pagoda- outside the temple

2006-07-06T01:40:00.000+08:00

The night we had snake wine... ewww

2006-07-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

Hanoi- Ho Chi Minh Mausoleum

2006-05-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

Hi there, I'm back once again.

Life hasnt been good/easy/happy. (LOL) I dont mean to sound depressed and I'm not. After exams the days have become busier than ever, it always seems so without fail. ODAC stuff more or less now coming to an end, so I'm left with my hall stuff. Good good.

Leaving for church camp on da 5th, returning on da 8th. Then, leaving for vietnam on da 12th and returning on da 25th. Guess this will be my longest holiday in a while. When year 2 comes, I should be rushing to complete more modules or working and not taking long hols anymore. And with this super duper nice and longgg get away, my first year in NTU officially ends (that is if I dont flunk any of my yr 1 mod). And when year 3 comes, hopefully I will be applying and going for an exchange or an immersion programme in the States, France or Switzerland. And that means to save $$$.

And I should be telling myself I'm not gonna step into a club again. Didnt like it at all, not a teeny weeny bit. The smoked clothes I got is enough for a night's headache. And with some really crazy people unleashed, I'd not better corrupt my pretty decent life for now. In all, nothing comes out of it so why should I put myself through it? No more.

The Mr. Singapore paegant is pretty interesting. I think I prefer Ms. Singapore anytime. LOL. There are so many unbelievable guys in that contest, you'd think it's pretty much a ridiculous reality show. And to those who's categorized by me in the unbelievable section, they'd better brush up their English language and oral. Maybe ah beng should win, truly Singaporean mah. Or Mr. teacher should win too, show us how well indeed he can educate our next generation when he can gladly get credit or below for primary school english oral.

Get that in mind.

2006-05-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

HELP ME!!!

I'm selling MOS tix for 18th May, thurs @ $16 for one free drink. Includes an exclusive metal water bottle from BAT (British American Tobacoo)! Please help me to buy! Usual entry for a thurs night at MOS is $20. $16 for one tix is worth it! So please support me by buying from me!!!

Thanks in advance.

2006-04-19T01:45:00.000+08:00

cleared HS 203! :))))))))))))))

Don't really know what to think of my papers so far. They weren't as difficult as I thought, but arghh the grade depends on my cohort. If they all do very well then I think I will probably be squeezed to the bottom. *crosses fingers*

Promised for more of yamapi! Eh, I just recently got into the Johnny craze so I just have to rattle on and on about them, esp. dearest yamapi. Ignore me if you think this is crap (BAH). Pls dont ignore me completely T_T Anyways, thanks to the internet I get to watch Kurosagi ONE DAY after it aired in Japan. HAHAHAHHA. and many thanks to the Chinese Subs team. Think Kurosagi is gonna be a blast, given its ratings of 25% in the 1st episode!!

http://www.tbs.co.jp/kuro-sagi/

Jap dramas waiting for me to watch:
1. Anego
2. Kurosagi
3. Gokusen II
4. Dragon Zakura
5. Attention Please!
6. Engine
7. Gokusen

and not forgetting 30+++ episodes of Bleach!! Well, the only Jap anime I'm watching. Hee.

Yamapi says Hi!

2006-04-17T20:33:00.000+08:00

reporting reporting...

Finished HS 204 Culture, Self and Identity!!! Woohoo.. the hardest module of the semester (I think)!! In less than 24 hours time will be my next soci paper.. *challenging desu ne! Suddenly got the motivation to blog and mug hard for my next paper due to my dearest yamapi :) He always strives to pitch with all that he has! Haha which is so cute desu!

More of yamapi after tomorrow's paper!

Work hard everyone!

2006-04-13T13:37:00.000+08:00

I wonder who actually reads my blog.

MYSELF!! I love reading my own blog. lol. Sometimes I dunno who I am writing to/for. Well... it's good to have no agenda, so it's like free writing. But then again, I can't write everything and anything or I may get myself in court or something. =X

Some random thoughts today. Finished my Jap paper!!! :))))) That's 1 paper down. 4 more to go. Been stuggling real hard to study coz there are always distractions wherever I am at :( But God is good and He always encourages me :) I'm happy for that. Just yesterday something struck me that made me kinda upset. I can trust no men. That's very scary. And it's worse when you think you know that somebody but many a time, that somebody isn't what you really think he is. Am I just thinking too much?

Anyways, I am still looking forward to the end of exams. I mean WHO doesn't, seriously. Going to vietnam will be good fun and good experience, especially with all the old people I am tagging along with. May I not be a burden to them. My first backpacking trip.. here I come!!!!

2006-04-11T01:41:00.000+08:00

to siangping the farmer, thanks for the encouragment you've showered me since the day I first knew you. you told me about how u always mug hard and play hard, mug mug mug then trek trek trek! I like it!!!! or is it mug mug mug then climb climb climb? ahahaha.. well, you really make a very good SP (my SP is SP!!) coz without you I dont think I can get so involved in ODAC now.. thanks!!! :)

it is always because of nice things that people do to you that make you wanna do nice things for others also!

mugging this sem is difficult, coz I have not much motivation to study. Looking at the readings I just get bored very quickly.. no sense of urgency! :( I often have to force myself to study coz I know I need to. arghh cannot let this sem be bad or my GPA will be a goner!! NOOOOOO!

2 more days to first paper.

2006-04-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

today is the start of my official mugging days. having slept @ 4am the day before, I gladly woke up @ 1130 this morn. my late sleeping was partly due to taking to a particular person and also thanks to him I got freaked out by a photo in the wee hours (MSN me if u wanna view the photo). I was really hungry this morn but my dearest xiao mei brought me nasi lemak breakfast all the way from clementi, which she left outside my room while I was still snoring. tried to study for a while on the world bank and the IMF but after 2 hours I felt like sleeping AGAIN. (SP claims cows are sleepy animals)

lazed around in the room coz roomie not in and I was bored. and my room is seriously so messy i dun have space to lie on my own bed. luckily that particular someone cured me of my boredom by inviting me to lunchie and then to sADM to return his camera. (sADM= sch of Art, Design and Media) So I went to the temporary block of sADM (coz their sch building not yet completed) for the 1st time. wOw, there were really nice and creative art pieces and I'm amazed! nice nice nice.

after the nice time I had it was time to mug again. Denis was so piggy he was sleeping when I called him. So I ended up @ the Quad cafe alone doing some studying while waiting for him to bring me into his SBS resource room (Sch of Bio Sci). So here I am until now typing this boring entry while trying to read up on the WTO (world trade organization) and all the trade stuff.

I want the exams to end now.

2006-04-05T09:40:00.000+08:00

Summer hols backpacking Vietnam. climbing Fansipan :))

Vietnam:
*wettest from June to August (South)
*hot summers from May to October (North)
*Hanoi pop. 3.5 million
*Vietnamese (Kinh) is the official lang.
*Mandarin and Eng. also widely spoken :)
*Communist since 1975
*3/4 of the country is mountainous and hilly (!!!)
*highest peak (of indo-china) is Mt. Fansipan at 3124m (in the Northwest)
*views into Laos and China at its peak

Neat. Will be adding to the list!

2006-04-04T02:56:00.000+08:00

When all things fail, God remains. He never fails.

Without Him, I wouldn't be where I am today. I need to thank Him, thank Him for everything that He has given me. I remember when I was very young, I did something really wrong. I was so upset over it, I felt so guilty. I cried that very night but I asked Him, "God forgive me. Help me change." and He did. I didnt ever make the same mistake again.

Somewhere down that road, I forgot Him. I thought life wasn't worth living, I even thought I meant nothing in this world. Somehow, I overcame these thoughts. I believed He watched over me because He sees me even when I don't see Him.

I stumbled but I continued walking. This path isn't easy. Years later I took an even harder path, this path I chose to follow Him. True enough, setbacks came. I cried almost every night at that time, I cried because I felt so helpless and lonely. But He comforted me, He told me not to be afraid, he told me I wasn't the least lonely. Even when all men fail, He will be there for me.

He gave me a new path when I thought all was gone. I couldn't be anymore grateful.

The stars sing with joy and praise Him for eternity.

2006-03-31T14:55:00.000+08:00

Here I come rumbling again.

Exams in one week! *sobs*
Everybody wants to study.
A wants to study, B wants to study,
and it happens that I want to study as well.
But there are unfinished businesses
always lurking nearby
grabbing me around the waist,
the leg, the wrist.
So when you say, "I wanna study"
please spare a thought for me
coz I wanna study too (NOT LIKE I DO NOT WANT TO).
Maybe help to ease a bit of the(not only mine?) burden?
Instead of everybody brushing off with
"I want to study"

I WANT TO STUDY too. Thank you.

End of rumblings.

2006-03-30T01:52:00.000+08:00

A picture speaks a thousand words...

*Learning Jap isn't easy...
*pulls hair*

*flooded with Jap words...

*flooded with ATC materials
*pulls hair*
*sulks*
*sigh*

*my comfy study area
*only I can find my way thru this heap...

*my dear roomie typing away...
*type type type

2006-03-27T17:02:00.000+08:00

I have come to ~~HATE~~ DREAD it.
today I think emotionally I was near to collapse..
maybe physically I can still take it.
after all it's just going all over NTU under the hot sun.
I feel like I was alone, nobody's helping, or even attempt to help.
I feel like everything was only me and her. then the rest..
just floating around?

214 term essay due tmr.. not yet a single word.
204 write up due this week.
writing class portfolio due this wed.
jap listening n oral next week.
booths to man this weekend.
tell me how much can a human take?

it wasnt a result of ONE day.
it's a result of a few weeks.
getting me to do this to do that
when has one offered to/ attempted to lend a hand?

and YOU this dear head of a school.
YOU just made my day even worse.
thank you for complaining.
your complains were indeed useful.
Don't YOU know basic courtesy?
to think you head a school.

thank you to those who made my weeks real bad.

2006-03-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

looking thru cute icons.. these are the ones I like!

*crazie! (funny!)

*blur

*sweet

*suave :)

*where's my grilled chicken??

Haha! Off to do my 2000 word report! *poof*

2006-03-23T03:20:00.000+08:00

I wanted to upload pictures.
BUT IT DOESNT LOAD.
YUCKS. MAKING ME MAD.

Anyway, I'm blogging again.
In the wee hours of the night...
and I have lesson at 9.30am!
Wells, I already look like a panda anyway.

Yummy today I had Sakae buffet!
The cheesecake gang got together once again...
and we bought similar cheesecake slippers after the buffet.
First time I had such a hilarous time eating...
it felt like those times again.. when there's no stress
only fun and laughter and food!

I like chawanmushi :))

2006-03-21T01:31:00.000+08:00

Do I sound/act overly positive sometimes??
I think I do.
Well, when I'm in normal but stoning mood I look depressed.
I think I'm looking older n older n older.
Lost that youthful glow around my cheeks,
lost that genuine bubbly me.

Age has caught up, I think.
Do I allow my body to grow old,
yet I'm still a babe who drinks milk?
どこへもいきません。(nowhere to go)
only ahead, coz this race hasnt ended yet.

Take heed my friends, run like the wind.
I hope we're all in the same place right at the end.

2006-03-19T01:57:00.000+08:00

Disney On Ice.

Wow. What can I say. 20 years of my life and this is the first time I've watched DOI. Haha... see I'm not those lucky kids whom parents will spend money to go watch such shows. Well, it was nice!!! My favourtite segment was Mulan, coz the skater was cool and it was most entertaining as a whole. For Nemo and the Lion King, it's kina weird coz the characters were skating around in weird looking costumes that are quite ugly, especially Simba. Simba looks hideous. I think I'll cry if I saw him 15 years ago. Haha. Some toddlers cried coz they were too scared at one point or another.. perhaps the sound effects scared them.

I concluded the kids love The Incredibles the most. And Toy Story. Cinderella, Snow White, and Aladdin are totally not their era.. but I love them! Reminds me of the days when I will pop over to my neighbour's house and watch all the Disney cartoons. That's like 15 years ago. wow.

I guess no matter when, Disney does have a place in all of our hearts.

2006-03-14T01:16:00.000+08:00

I just saw something that didnt appeal to my aesthetics. I expected something better or at least acceptable looking. BUT, well... I wonder if my expectations are too high. I GUESS NOT. To put it simply, the website is ugly! Argh I cant stand ugly things. (THINGS)

ok end of my grumbling. gonna be real busy this week with school, atc, omc, zion convention and work. I wonder how I'm gonna meet the deadlines for my 204 and 214 projects/essays. I wonder when I can start studying for my exams. I wonder how things will turn out after I survived this week, otherwise termed as 'Hell Week'. Guess this kinda week happens every sem. Last sem was 3 essay deadlines plus studying for tests/quizes in a week.

Brings me back to the point of - WHO SAYS UNI MORE SLACK??? ahahahaha.. but am getting used to it now. it's ok coz He's with me! Today I just saw how He worked in my life again:) An initial night of 2 assignments and publicity stuff which may just jolly well take up a whole night is reduced to 1 assignment and extended deadline for my publicity stuff. Yay! Who says He doesnt listen?? *beams from ear to ear*

I know at least I wont be crushed tonight.

2006-03-08T01:15:00.000+08:00

shan.wanny.yimyiu.kiaying.xue.yiling.huiyi.mich.ruai.yuanting.
megan.jaz.minghui.vivian.sherlyn.boonwee.lydia.zhiwei.yuwei.
merbra.weisheng.jeremy.huijie.eugene.hinlun.samantha.yuenling.
alex.eileen.siangping.steven.denis.chongmeng.meiqi.jiayi.quanli.
wenhua.allan.deting.meina.liena.sarah.wenhui.pastoryang.
ching.adel.yvonne.mrpang.mrsayers.mrsamuellim.mrtay.mrquek.
msfoo.mrsgoh.mstan.wgy.jiada.jiahui.wenjing.yexiang.huiling.

thanks.

2006-03-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

7 signs that you are normal

1. your hall neighbour wears thermal underwear
2. your hall neighbour has everything pink- from shoes to luggage
3. your male tutor has long hair, a tattoo and puffs his life away
4. your male tutor is a qigong master
5. your prof is on leave since the beginning of last sem
6. your school mate eats dirty green seaweed for lunch
7. your pantry mircowave exploded coz someone tried to mircowave an egg

2006-02-28T01:17:00.000+08:00

Yay got my kayaking one star! In the process got burnt but made new friends and had a good time under the sun :) Very tiring to kayak especially when the wind is strong but it's much easier than sailing... at least for the capsizing part for now.. I used to have a phobia of capsizing since like 9 yrs ago when I fell into the sea while sailing and at that point just a few moments ago I saw a jellyfish lurking near by!!! Luckily coach came to my rescue! haha..

End of recess week.. lots of stuff to do.. Hall orientation, ATC and school work is enough to kill me.. and this sem I've got a heavier workload. Well, sometimes I also wonder when I dont have all these things to do life becomes bored and I will just slack my time away. So I concluded that it's a teeny weeny bit better to be busy and definitely much better to be seeking God! :) I always imagine how amazing it is when God first spoke the world into being, "Let there be light" and there was light!

"And the LORD God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living thing." Genesis 2:7

2006-02-23T02:16:00.000+08:00

I've just watched another Jap drama that beats Crying Out Love from the Centre of the Earth. This wins hands down in the depression meter- 1 litre of Tears. Well, it really made me cry one litre of tears, almost wiping out my entire tissue box. I'm loving Jap dramas now... get to learn and practise some Jap listening as well (LOL). Jap fever is back! ( Shoo the Korean wind...)

Anyway, I saw on MTV this guy called K who sings this Jap song called Over or something. Really caught my attention coz it seriously sounds good and he's not bad looking. Went on the increasingly-becoming-my-fave site otherwise known as www.youtube.com and searched for his video.... and to my surprise surprise.... HE SANG THE THEME SONG OF 1 LITRE OF TEARS. Wahhhh.. and he's KOREAN. Wow, like gonna burn a whole in my pocket if I decide to get BOTH his korean and jap albums. HMMM..

Like after making a seriously stupid blunder on my last Jap test.. I'm not gonna make the same mistake twice! Determined to score for my Jap now.. gambatte!!!!

2006-02-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

10 years ago,
was taught by this teacher called Mrs Goh. She reminded me alot of the TV actress Koh Cheng Mun..anyway she was a very nice teacher but she always gave so much homework I couldn't even finish at 12 midnight and sometimes I would just sit there and cry (without my mum seeing). STRESS LOR. Primary 4 only!! One of my best friends in primary sch also went back to HK coz his dad was posted back there to work. I am still in contact with him! Saw him in HK when I went there for holiday last year. I still remember a bunch of friends and I went to the mama shop opposite my sch to get those mini mugs from the toy machine(slot in $1 then turn and a capsule drops out). I got a Keropi(Frog) design one which was my friend's favourite cartoon character and I gave it to him as a present before he left for HK. Haha.. gosh I still remember all these!

5 years ago,
was very involved in DHSCO. met alot of great buddies who remain close friends till now :)

1 year ago,
was working at the airport which is my best working experience so far. miss those days when I can da yao da bai inside the transit area and the mac there is so pretty and I get to see people from all around the world!!!

5 foods i enjoy,
sashimi, black pepper crab, tomatoes, cucumber, pineapple tarts

5 songs i know all the words to,
Jay's anjing, Jay's kaibuliaokou, Jay's shuangjiegun, Jay's jiekou, Jay's heiseyoumo

5 favourite television shows,
Survivor, Waterboys I, Waterboys II, The Amazing Race, Full House

5 biggest joys,
Pleasing God, spending time with family, spending time with friends, cooking, trekking

5 people i [might] tagged to do this quiz,
I dun feel like tagging anyone.. do it if you like! haha.. :)

2006-02-14T16:21:00.000+08:00

thanks kor for the song dedication and the message. it's very very sweet and I'm very very touched. it may be nothing much but it sure meant alot to me. by the way ai hen jian dan is one of my favourite songs! thanks for everything, this is the best vday present ever. from the bottom of my heart, :)

2006-02-13T17:39:00.000+08:00

very random.

Today set out for sch at 8.55am for my 10.30 jap tutorial with my dearest mummy (she's on her way to work). I realised I haven been talking much to my family members... and sometimes I dunno what to say. Well, I guess when parents get older, they actually long more for the concern of their kids. Like me, my mum was telling me about her body checkup and that her friend got lst stage breast cancer. She's quite upset over this, and I guess she's worried about herself. Somehow my concern for her cant seem to be put into words, so I kept quiet and answered her occassionally. It's not the first time she mentioned this to me. I'm worried about her too...

Well, actually I feel like moving back home these days. Now my real home seems foreign to me somehow.. that I actually spend so little time in it, it doesnt feel right. I miss the times I get to eat dinner at home, or even cooking dinner for my family myself. These days when I get home, I have no dinner or I have to eat take-aways my dad buys after work. My mum will be working and more than often my sis will be out. Then, my dad's quite lonely also. Sigh. I wish NTU can move to Pasir Ris!

Still thinking if I wanna stay in hall next sem. Advantages and disadvantages so far seem to be on par. I guess I dont wanna be tied down by hall activities anymore.. waste of time and input equate to less than desired output. This makes me very sian and tired. And the activities zap me mentally and physically such that I have lesser time for school work. This is very bad coz to me school work should be piority.

This year I really saw how God worked in each and everyone of our lives. People who may seem distant actually accepted God into their lives and of course I'm praying for more. I realised each and everyone of us is so different that I marvel at the fact that we actually live together in the same place, same time. Why not 100 years earlier? Why not 100 years later? God put us to be so, God gave us a purpose in life and we are not to waste it. Nobody is here by chance.

The world is so corrupted. Even things which seem mundane are actually the work of men and through the years we begun to accept things like they really are. What's real? Does wearing that Nike shoe make you of equal status as those athletes? Does crying and attempting suicide prove your love for your lover? Does drinking and swinging your heads to those techo, rnb, retro music enrich any part of your bodies? or your mind? Does a life of partying bring you happiness and satisfaction?

time for reflection.

2006-01-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year folks!
2005 is gone gone gone. hahaha!!
here's how I spent my new year's eve...

Rushed to indoor stadium after I missed bus 11 @ kallang
was already 6.55pm when I was supposed to report @ 7pm
(Sigh) cost me $5.80 for a super short journey (!%@&%#*^!)
I discovered my duty that night was to guard section A14
apparently the concert that night was an ABC beer event aka countdown
and the ppl exchange some bottle caps for tix to enter
the event itself was okay but the audience were.. typically kiasu
met some difficulties while guarding my section
and I discovered those you think will pick a fight usually don't
while those that don't look that sort do. (see don't judge!!)
got quite pek cek at one point but well it was sorted out... thank God
spent the last hour or so of 2005 listening to the HK grp grasshoppers sing
wow, they sang all my fave childhood songs!!
so that kinda made up for any unhappiness :)
this time working made some more new friends
finally met the legendary Raymond!! haha
my kor's good buddy @ work last time
he's a nice guy so yay next time got one more person to 'take care' of me

so the last day of 2005 was quite uniquely spent
at least I'll remember.. I cant remember how I spent the last day of 2004
so here's wishing everyone a great new year ahead!
cheers!!

2005-12-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

I pronounce my blog dead! hahaha.. it's been quite some time since I last updated.
Went trekking in Malaysia up Gunung Datuk on the 12th
carried alot of stuff and it was very heavy.. bag packed to the brim
but despite the weight, the 45 to 75 degrees slopes, the uneven tracks
I overcame them all!
A little bit of accomplishment.. and alot of determination
well I wanted to throw my disgustingly heavy bag down the mountain
but I asked the Lord to give me strength to go on
and guess what He did!
hahaha..
the scenery up at the summit was great
could see the whole of the straits of malacca :)
and the clouds and the air up there was so good
I loved it! Staring in awe at God's creation.. it feels wonderful.

Next sem I'm gonna have much more modules to cope
and trying to take Jap (hope I get it)
think another exciting sem is coming up!
hahaha.. I look forward to the new year actually :)
Next hols will want to make time for trekking again!

2005-12-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

long time since my last entry!
woohoo. I'm back.
just came back to my room(in hall) after darts friendly
I actually won a game
my first ever victory!! (haha) *applause*
my captain Andy kept teasing me
think I'm too good to bully liao
coz I dont get angry
yes you can call me whatever names you want
I think I dont really mind
saw yunxin just now while she's having cheerleading pract
poor thing la she fell down and hurt herself!
*take care yunny*
next week I'm gonna be away to Gunang Datuk
for a 3 days 2 nights trek
will also be away to Cameron Highlands till 19th
one week get away break before the new sem starts
speaking of which I really need to get new sch clothes
and I really need to tidy my rooms(at home n in hall)
GETTING TOO LAZY LA!!

2005-11-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

I feel really really happy for this friend
who was my "zero-point" buddy in primary one
who brought new stuff in sch to play with us
who stood up to the bully who wanted to snatch our rubber bands
who always played the girls' games
though he was a boy
now he's a man (a handsome one!)
a very talented pianist
no longer that "sissy" boy whom the boys teased
who would have thought otherwise?
I feel really proud of him
though we have not been in contact for like 10 years
but I remember those times vividly
that innocent friendship...
and I'm really happy for my friend
who has gone so far
to be the man he is today :)

2005-11-22T13:45:00.000+08:00

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:
You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.
At Your Lowest:
You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.
In Love:
You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.
How You're Attractive:
Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.
Your Eternal Question:
"What else do I need in my life?"

What's" Your Power Color?

2005-11-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

@&@^%$!$@*
the entry I typed earlier is gone
blogger is so $!%@&^@! sometimes

2 more papers left for me..
enduring... coz they are core papers
cannot afford to do too badly
yet I've been staring at the same notes
while I wonder how much really got into my brain
so worn out and tired...
WHY 3 WEEKS FOR 5 PAPERS?!?!?
thats such a longggg time.
hate waiting, yet we wait all our lives

Miss the presence of God in my life
so dry sometimes that I wanna just drown myself
in His presence
then I realised men are so weak
wanna do things just based on my own strength?
wishful thinking
so foolish so dumb so ignorant
that's me

sometimes I feel so burdened by so many things
my family, my friends, things of this world
yet seeking perfection in His eyes
it's so difficult
praying yet not acknowledged
but knowing that He hears
just keep me going
coz prayers will be heard in His own time

faith.

2005-11-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

~~HL101 Intro to English Literature~~ down.
come to think if it, this is the slack-est module :P
2 more weeks to go, 3 more core papers
and this sem will be offically over

I have lost my studying momentum for a teeny weeny bit.
sigh, just when my core papers are here!!!

thanks to my friends who have given me encouragement
"'You guys are the best!" :)
I shall get into battle gear and charge in for the remaining 3 battles

after reading yuwei's entry something struck me:
I DUN HAVE A STUDY GROUP and course mates whom I'm close to
ARGHH. I only have Yvonne and we xiang yi wei ming
boo.
the times when she's not in sch I:
-go to lectures myself
-go to tutorials myself
-eat lunch myself
-talk to myself

so sad huh.. but luckily I have a bunch of hall n ODAC mates
who dine with me
study with me
laugh with me
chat with me

and basically make me a happy girl in NTU

2005-11-08T16:18:00.001+08:00

~~CS101 Intro to Communication Studies~~
one paper down... four more to go.
fifteen more days...

was very amazed by the video clips that SP showed me
coz they show angmohs doing free climbing and bouldering
one word to sum it all- POWER!!
ahhahaha.. beginning to talk like him too. lol

getting fatter already... seeing myself eating, sleeping n studying
like doing nth else!!

2005-11-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

exams starting next mon!!! *screams*
hmm it's da CS101 paper- communication studies
come to realise that it's my least fave. *screams*

jay's album is niceeee!! despite critics that may slam him again
I think he did a wonderful job
except for the fact that his image looks suspiciously like rain
hahahaha
his compositions are getting more mature
it's so different from fantasy or 8 dimensions..

jay's moving away from infusing chinese classical only
to da influence of english classical and ancient chinese themes
this time creating a hybrid with that east/west vintage touch
but it's still jay's style
that's what I like about it :)

I like studying with my SP!!
always learning something new from him :)

2005-10-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

never too late to watch a good film! caught the Schindler's List last weekend and I loved it. cried several times during the film, and it convinced me that one man can really make a difference. so far watched 3 films concerning the second world war and Hilter and the Holocaust. there's Downfall, a German film depicting the downfall (as so the title says) of Hilter. it kinda presented Hitler in a different light, more humane and very very capable as a leader. there's also The Rise Of Evil, showing Hilter's rise to power. this kinda showed Hitler to be the mad cult leader, how a man, an opportunist, can make full good use of an absolute desperate situation to his atmost advantage. then there's Schindler's List, which portrayed the brutality of war, of genocide. how can a man(Hitler)'s hatred cause the deaths of 6 million Jews? well, it did.

suddenly it dawned upon me that the history testbooks we have are simply too basic. no description of the Holocaust in detail, not much mention of the masscare of Nanking, and there's so much more simply forgotten. and to add on to the fact that what we learn in History simply requires us to regegitate, no room for thinking or analyzing. we need to show the young how insane and inhumane men can really get, how this world came so far to what it is now (though it may not be much better...).

so much for history :P

2005-10-29T02:27:00.000+08:00

黑色毛衣
曲: 周杰伦词: (未知)

一件黑色毛衣两个人的回忆
雨过之后更难忘记忘记我还爱你
你不用在意流泪也只想刚好合意
我早已经待在谷底我知道不能再留住你
也知道不能没有孤寂感激你让我拥有缺点的美丽
看着那白色的蜻蜓在空中忘了前进
还能不能重新编织脑海中起毛球的记忆
再说我爱你可能雨也不会停
黑色毛衣藏在那里
就让回忆永远停在那里

2005-10-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such troubled times
And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
For one moment they become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know what's going on
When every second and every minute another soul is gone
-Destiny's Child "Stand up for Love"

Don't merely put off what u see in Africa to be something so far away
How far is so far?
Or is it occuring so frequently that we don't bade an eyelid anymore?
Yea u can always say we can do nothing to help.
I feel that way too
How helpless can we get?
Knowing those millions of people are even more helpless, lost.
Knowing those people cry and sob but not heard.

The world is not beautiful anymore.

2005-10-27T01:25:00.000+08:00

While doing my reading on consumption culture in Singapore, thought I'd share this interesting little paragraph with u guys:

"On the escalators, a seen-but-unnoticed sight in shopping centres in Singapore is repeatedly enacted by different couples. As if overcome by the exhaustion of shopping, she (the female partner) appears no longer to be able to hold up her own body and stand on her own. She leans back on to him (her male partner) and he supports her body with his, props her up, eliminating all physical distance between them; bodies pasted together until the landing at the top or bottom of the escalators. Again as if in graditude, she may even give him a pecking-kiss."

It made me nod my head unknowingly until, well, perhaps my roomie may turn around and see that her roomie has somehow gone retarded. HAHA. By the way the above is an extract from Chua Beng Huat's 'Bodies in SHopping Centres: Displays, Shapes and Intimacies' in Chua Beng Huat's Life is not complete without shopping.

Never forget the importance of dong referencing. (hah)

2005-10-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

this whole week had been very hectic due to 2 essays and 1 summary assignment.
on top of this, there's like tutorials to do, readings to read.
and not forgetting sorting out things for the exams.
essays dont mean you can simply finish them in one night
nor are they a matter of completing in a few hours.
they are research papers, meaning u need an extensive database
plus references and you can't plagurize (you'll be sued or get a major F grade).
then again, you need to do analysis
and come up with original examples to support your agruments.

there's so much so much to be done.

have been doing work together with chongmeng this week.
ok not forgetting shan, steven and denis.
everybody's busy.
you don't shake your ass and say "leave things to tomorrow"
you may just deeply regret it.

my bed reeks of davidoff's 'echo'.
ask chongmeng why.
but... (pauses to think) i like the smell.
coz davidoff has got one of the best smells in the world
:)

2005-10-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

Nothing is funnier than unhappiness,
I grant you that.
Yes, yes it's the most comical thing in the world
-Samuel Beckett

people who are unhappy are being totally ridiculous.
coz they are unhappy over things that don't mean anything.
Nothing means anything in this world.
men only invent things to make themselves happy.
hows that?

heard of a guy who went mad after seeing a horse being whipped?
yes, this man saw a horse being whipped by another man on the street
he broke down and went mad.
german philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche
someone who believed that God is dead
No, He isnt.
coz He's the same yesterday, today and tomorrow.

Sometimes, humanity just... disappoints.

2005-10-16T01:44:00.000+08:00

I have to say this out loud:

BEYOND'S CONCERT ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heard that?
Okay, back to my bed.
Tata.

(p.s thanks weisheng and zhiwei for the satay! next time jio me go ah. haha)

2005-10-15T04:03:00.000+08:00

My location now is canteen B, south spine, five minutes walk from Hall of Residence 4.
Something smells here; maybe it's the rubbish, something's leaking.
Been doing my research on my term papers and trying to get the info right n organized.
Yeah right, like I understand what the numerous lines mean.
Crap.

Dear roomie is here with me and Chongmeng as well.
Hmm, and some other nationalities- muggers (studying not robbing).
Listening to Jay.
Nice.

Hope I last thru this.
Sometimes when you think you can't,
you really can't.
But when you think you can,
miracles happen.

Don't give up on yourself :)

2005-10-07T03:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you feel the world stop spinning,
time froze; you cease yearning.
The mind's blur and the heart's confused,
where should you go?

The person who's here is now gone,
and it feels so empty; so strange.
You want to run,
but someone comes up with a gun.

Sometimes you feel you should live in memories,
where everything is good; there's no worries.
You wish to be void of feelings,
so that it doesn't hurt so badly.

But why be blinded like this?
When you can live on, a life more fufilling.
Your eyes are closed, open them please
God is right here waiting for thee.

2005-10-05T02:15:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna dive into my bed after this entry.

You know how the inspiration and urge to write comes to you only in the wee hours? I'm feeling like that. Sometimes, I wanna write but I dunno what to write about. The greatest invention has got to be writing. It revolutionized the world! Now, I'm just crapping coz I feel like writing. Wuahaha...

There's really a great diff between uni life and jc life. In uni, you start talking about guys going back for reservist and not going into ns. In uni, you meet people who have plans for their careers and marriages. In uni, you see people of different race, culture, language, heritage, country. In uni, you meet weird people, and I mean really weird people. In uni, you meet guys thinking if they make good husbands. In uni, you make decisions for yourself. In uni, you cannot possibly be spoon-fed. In uni, the world just got bigger.

I've got 3 essay assignments aka term papers on hand. Yucks. The soci ones are still okay. But eng lit? I've no idea how to do critical appreciation. Arghh.

Press on Grace :P

2005-10-04T03:05:00.000+08:00

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. grace
2. gracie
3. xiao mei
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. janu^gal
2. gracie
3. rainingcows
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. hair
2. skin
3. ears
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. tummy
2. eyes
3. height
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. singapore
2. china
3. malaysia
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. spiders/cockroaches
2. scary movies
3. failure
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. God
2. wallet
3. handphone
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. odac orientation tee
2. sajc pe shorts
3. spectacles
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. jay chou
2. lee hom
3. jj lin
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. hei se you mo by jay
2. ni bu zai by lee hom
3. mu nai yi by jj lin
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. trust
2. devotion
3. humor
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. i like sch
2. i have 3 essays on hand
3. i m getting married
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. hair
2. good build
3. smile
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. read
2. doing outdoor stuff
3. going to the movies
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. talk to him
2. finish all my essays
3. go home
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. journalist
2. writer
3. open my own cafe
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. brazil
2. saudi arabia
3. japan
THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. meryl
2. jeremiah
3. marc
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. backpack ard the world
2. get married
3. have faith
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i like outdoor stuff
2. i wear jeans most of the time
3. i eat fast
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i cry easily
2. i think alot
3. i m sensitive
THREE CELEB CRUSHES
1. hidetoshi nakata
2. daniel wu
3. rain

2005-09-29T17:03:00.000+08:00

2005-09-27T15:52:00.000+08:00

Care for some tongyi instant noodles?
I bet you will crave for more after looking at these adverts:
http://www.fangbianmian.com/club/club_01.htm

1. click on those which feature Jay
2. you can either choose to view them directly from the source using wmp or you can right click on the "download here" button and "save target as"
3. drool over those delicious looking noodles (and of cos Jay as well)
4. Scroll down the page and you'll see more of Jay! in some pretty cool wallpapers
5. enjoy :)

2005-09-24T02:13:00.000+08:00

I need to get rid of any bad attitude that I may/possibly have. yeeks. It's like when I'm lost in studying, I dunno if what I'm studying actually gets absorbed into my teeny brain. urghh.

why why why?
Then I'll start thinking if I'm actually studying. Or just putting the notes in front of me reading. Or is there a difference? Arghh.

Come on Grace, where's your momentum? Where's your determination?
Remember your promise to study hard?
where where where?

It's hard to juggle time in uni. Seriously, I think all those reading now are nodding their heads. Time is like never enough. never.

There's this little fear in me.. that history is gonna repeat itself. lousy grades, heck care attitude. I dun wanna flunk my papers!

It's time asking Him for more grace.

2005-09-22T00:18:00.000+08:00

Meiqi is gone... to a faraway land called England. Didn't manage to see her off at the airport on Sunday coz of work. I guess I'd burst out crying if I'd been there. I'm not exactly someone who remains calm in scenerios like this. I've never been able to master the art of curbing an urge to cry. I'd just cry silently.

I remember Meiqi was my first ever official sitting partner in class way back in Sec 1. I remember we used to poke fun at Mrs Khoo our math teacher who was crazy about teletubies. I remember we both almost flunk our first math test (our scores were 1 mark different).

Think I'll miss her... and I pray she's good in that foreign place, meeting nice people and having a great time!

Ever thought of the happy times and wished you were back there again? I think I'm someone who doesnt wanna let go of old times, esp the good old times.. they keep me going you know. Recently, a friend of mine said that there's no point in doing so... coz what's gone is gone, we should just look ahead. WAH. This kinda send several bullets into my chest. I never thought someone could feel like that, with no regards for past memories at all...

2005-09-18T01:12:00.000+08:00

i m dead beat, aching butt, aching arms, bruised palm all into one package. it's been quite a while since my body's ached to its limit. tired but it feels good!

fri morning was supposed to meet my og at harbour front at 10am. i arrived at 10.17am and thought i was very late already.. so i rushed all the way to mac, then... there was no one in sight! AHHH. i waited and waited and finally i started to call everybody. gwen just woke up while alex n eileen didnt answer my call. WAH. i feel like fainting at that moment. so in the end it's just me and aaron stoning and talking about almost anything under the sun before the rest finally came hours later. but we still had fun at sentosa playing beach volley, swimming and baking under the sun. anyway me being so forgiving decided to forgive all who were late.. hahahahaha.

later that night i went for my virgin night cycling with the odac peeps. it was a good experience and definitely requires alot of energy (okay, i shall consider jogging more often now). the fun part was going through those dark deserted roads down the slopes (not up! it's super tiring). it feels real good when you are going fast! i was also really impressed by boss's (aka odac president) $1000 bike!! and he cycled from his home in bukit timah to east coast park to changi village to meet us.. (wah wah wah) later on our journey to jalan kayu for prata, we were caught in the rain. heavy rain and we were all drenched and cold.. really really cold!!! -sniff-
i was really shagged by the time we completed our journey and was back at ecp. thanks to denis and steven for making the trip more memorable, to steven for his as-usual-really-extra-cold jokes and to denis for looking after me :)

-sniff-

2005-09-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

I m burnt! Just ONE day under the sun and I m burnt! zhen mei you yong!!!!

pretty quickly the week is half gone. *blink blink*
like all other weeks, this week runs pretty quickly...
Didn't manage to go down to NUS today to visit the guys
coz me and dear roomie woke up at 1pm (wuahaha)
we talked the whole night, or rather the whole morning before the sun rose.
about love, about life, about God.
it's good talking like that coz I feel much better after that
no matter how lousy or down I was feeling before
thanks roomie

2005-09-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

Grace shouts from the centre of the earth, "My brother Alex Lim Hong Yao is NOT stupid, ugly, silly and old!!!"

He's the best brother Grace can have =)

2005-09-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

some thoughts on love...
(thought provoking okay! I've been thinking about this since 5am this morn)

a guy fren of mine says, "You never marry the one you love. The one you love always remains as only the one you love." He doesn't believe in marrying the person you love most but marrying the person who happens to be there at the right place at the right time. And then, both of you want to settle down. So.. -poof- wedding bells ring... agree?

The greatest gift ever is love.
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
1 Corinthians 13

2005-09-09T15:04:00.000+08:00

the term break is here!! but there's so much more work to be done.
neverending...

ODAC peeps going desaru cycling and various trekking trips... wont be joining them though. hope they have lots of fun!! I sense the wave of commitments crashing into me soon... yesterday was hall recre subcom meeting. Today there's hall biz mag subcom meeting... busy busy. And not forgetting getting pond-ed at Nanyang Lake yesterday!! second time into that muddy lake.. always wonder what's lurking inside.. (I've seen lots of tortises and roomie claimed to have seen an unidentified crawling animal) Got pond-ed coz it's Youyi's(lives below me) birthday.. in the end all the freshies, yr 2s and him got thrown into the lake. haha.. what a tradition..

events for term break:
ODAC night cycling
Mamba outing
Pumpfest+ATC meeting
Percussion guys/gals outing
working for snow.wolf.lake @ indoor

Not to forget catching up on my readings.. jia you jia you!

2005-09-08T16:35:00.000+08:00

look at this! any idea who's this? YES you are right he's none other than Ian Thorpe! -GOSH- I'm surprised by how he looks now. with all that beard and unkempt hair.

Doesnt look too good, does he?

Anyway I feel so relieved now coz I finished all that I have to do before term break (hurray!) Thank God for bringing me thru this whole crazy week. I could have jolly well gone into aslym. But... the readings ARE still piling up. Gotta persevere!

I am in so many committees! ODAC ATC publicity, hall recreation sub com, hall biz mag sub com and hall drama. WAH.

2005-09-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

Waiting for dear roomie to be back so we can go for dinner (as always..). So terribly sickening, I think I hate eating dinner now. Where were the times I could smell my dinner even when I'm 2 metres away from my door and then pop into my living room and mum will say, "Time for dinner!"??

I feel deprived of proper family life and dinner, yes dinner.

Sigh. Feeling tired, stressed out and brain dead but I still have 1 essay, 3 summaries and 1 presentation to complete by today. Shoot me please.

2005-09-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

My lappie's dying!!!!!! (no more batt)

and I'm dying... (information overload)

2005-09-05T17:33:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Zhiwei :D

2005-09-03T03:10:00.000+08:00

It's 3.13am and I can't get to sleep. These days my clock is going haywire... been sleeping at weird hours and waking up in the afternoon. BAD!! And I feel that I haven been eating right.. no 2 portions of fruit and veggie!! -sobs- I miss the food my mom cooks.

Uni life is busier than I thought. Who says it's slacker than JC? (C'mmon own up now!) Been bombarded with mid-term tests and presentations, plus the mountains of readings lying on my desk... really cannot afford to lag behind lah!

Suddenly this new environment seems to be swallowing me up.

It's like a table covered with dust. You smack the table, the whole lot of dust flies up. But after some time it settles back unto the table again, even though the speck of dust will not lie on the same spot.

I'm back on the table once again.

"Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has set down at the right hand of the throne of God." - Hebrews 12:1-2

2005-09-02T14:38:00.000+08:00

I did something stupid on my lappie
Now it's at the ice age era
with completely nothing in it
AHHHH.........

2005-08-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

I look at Rain's fanlisting and SUDDENLY there are 85 Singapore fans.
I dont know if I shd cry or cheer.

Any remedy for boosting memory? I need lots of short-term memory now to last me for tmr's test. 6 weeks passed just like that. I m actually entering mid-term. -shivers-

The modules I m taking:
* Introduction to Communication Studies
* Introduction to the Study of Literature
* Social Problems in a Global Context
* S'pore society in transition
* Person and Society

The last 3 modules are Sociology modules. That's basically what Sociology is about. Lectures are fun coz there's lots of interaction between lecturer and us and we get to watch interesting videos. Tutorials are all discussion based; mostly group work or debate sessions plus presentations. Basically we are to THINK and THINK and THINK. Also to READ and READ and READ. Assignments are not heavy YET unlike the biz and accountancy students (always rushing to finish tutorials).

I like what I m doing, though people always give me the look when I tell them the course I m in. Then, the next qsn they'll ask is, "So, what can you do after you graduate?"

I'm kinda sick of it.

2005-08-30T14:20:00.000+08:00

I miss...
going to school in uniform, track shoes and backpack
wearing VJC's uniform
running on the VJ track
Samuel Lim's history lessons
drinking the soup my mom makes
singing the national anthem and saying the pledge
eating in the canteen with my clique
waking up before sunrise
playing captain's ball during sec sch days
having orchestra practices

2005-08-28T00:21:00.000+08:00

Queen and King of Hall 4 2005 :)

2005-08-28T00:19:00.001+08:00

me and Hall Queen 2005 June!

2005-08-28T00:19:00.000+08:00

me and Hall King 2005 Wei Jian!!

2005-08-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

me and Mr. Charismatic Pei Song~

2005-08-28T00:15:00.000+08:00

me and my da ge Alex :))

2005-08-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

me and my xiaomei eeeeeeelieen!

2005-08-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

my table of frens :))